do you have a suit?

Jeff went to Austin for his cousin Eric's wedding.
Such a simple sentence right? None of our friends have questioned it, the only question of course is why I'm not there.
The funny thing is is that I'm allowed to say it cost too much. In this economy everyone talks about things costing too much. But no one (other than Levia) knows how incredibly hard this is for us. I'm buying damaged fruit, cutting the mold off of bread and serving it, making challah as our bread choice. We are just not flying places and going on trips right now. Except that Jeff did. He bought the ticket before the collapse. But he's not living in the same place as me. He hasn't moved to moldy bread land yet.
Our application for reduced lunch was accepted. Its like we've officially been declared poor.
Hopefully from here we will get a scholarship for all day Kindergarten. All day Kindergarten with a total of 28 kids in the class.
I'm having a hard time relating to my friends who are clearly not suffering at all. We had dinner with the Cullsteins last night at Baja Fresh. They told me all about their dinner out at a new French Bistro in the Pearl the night before and how they saw a French movie at the Living Room theater. We laughed that they were being influenced by Jenn. They thought nothing of joining us on our evening out at Baja Fresh. They had no idea that our evening out at Baja Fresh was it. Our big night. Our restaurant meal! It was our French Bistro and our French film for the month. I can't judge can I? I can't even have the sanctimonious pleasure of judgement since I was them less than a month ago.
It turns out that Jeff doesn't have a suit. At least not one without moth holes. He thought about filling in the holes with a sharpie (of which we have plenty) or just wearing a mismatched suit. We voted for option two. Mismatched vs sharpy.
We spent the week treating each other gingerly. This trip, no matter how you look at it, is a blow. It sets our progress back. Our progress to solvency and also our progress to partnership. He bought the ticket before the crash. I know that he did. But still, its a blow.
Credit card bills are pouring in. This not over by a long shot.